Woah! this is my 100th post on tumblr! It’s pretty crazy how much time i spend on this website.. I recently deactivated my facebook just for a week. Why? I’m pretty self cautious. It’s such a big flaw but at least I can admit it now.. I always updated my statuses and a friend made a good point and it went something like this “i don’t need to know every detail of your life”. What this person said did make me feel self cautious, but I’m not mad that my friend wrote this. She made a legitimate point. I really didn’t need to update my status every minute of my life. Not all my facebook friends are actually my “friends”. Which brings up another point, this post is dedicated to my friends. The ones that stuck with me through thick and thin, the ones that give me advice, the ones that tell me what I’m doing right and wrong, and especially the ones that have helped me come closer with God. If you’re sitting there wondering because you’re not sure if I’m talking about you, I’m sorry to tell you this because I probably don’t consider you as a friend if you’re having doubts. To be honest, I don’t consider a lot of people to be my friends. I consider many of them as acquaintances or just people i know. I’ve had so many problems with trusting people before and still struggle with that same trust today. But after coming to George Mason, I have definitely found my life long friends. I thank God everyday for the few “true” friends that he has provided. This post is for you guys :)
Just finished watching the third Chronicles of Narnia with my mom. Best way to start spring break :) I’m finally home in ellicott city and although I despise this city, I still love my house/home. It’s a place where I’m with family and I can rest in peace and quiet. Anyways.. This movie was amazing. Throughout the movie my mom was reminding me how this movie was basically a fictional spin-off of stories from the bible. I could actually relate a lot of the messages that were said throughout the movie to the bible.
At the same time, I could see how God was telling me certain things as well. Lucie, the youngest sister, was in this big invisible mansion where she was instructed by these invisible monster/creatures to go search for a book of spells. They wanted her to find the spell to turn everything visible again. Once she found the book, she flipped through the pages and came across a page where there was a spell to make her look as pretty as she wanted. She said the spell, and the page turned into a mirror and showed her, her sister. She viewed her sister to be one of the beautiful girls in the world. She was so satisfied and happy, she looked into a glass and in the reflection she saw her normal self. She then ripped the page out and hid it underneath her clothes. Later on she had a dream where she did the spell again and it turned into a nightmare, but Aslan (the lion who portrays Jesus) came and reminded her that she was beautiful the way she was. Reminded me how God created me in His image, therefore I should just accept myself and my looks/body for the way it is. This is what a lot of girls struggle with, self image. I know I’m not fat and that i don’t have the perfect body, but I’m definitely going to try to remind myself that I’m perfect in His eyes.
There are so many different messages I got out of this movie. But this one stuck out the most.
Well it’s officially spring break. I’m nice and cozy in my big bed.
Time to sleep and wake up early for morning prayer at my parents church.
night. tootles ~
Like and reblog so it’s two notes.
I’m not catholic but it doesn’t hurt to fast some things for 40 days
40 days of water starts today as well.
Things I will be giving up for 40 days:
1. Soda, Coffee, Juice, etc ( Can only drink water)
2. Junk Food (Chips and Candy ; not including mint gum)
I was walking in tysons, and I stood in line to buy food at the food court. I was in front of a Korean/Chinese Cuisine Fast food place. I felt someone tap my shoulder and it was his mom. Her eyes filled up with tears while she asked me “How are you? I’m sorry for what my son did. But something is happening and I dont know what it means” I was so confused..I haven’t seen his mom for about 4-5 months and now the first time i see her shes crying in front of me. What was I supposed to do? She then grabbed my arm and took me to sit down at one of the tables. She put her hand in her pocket and took out a folded piece of paper. With tears still rolling down her face she looked at me and said “take a look at this, why is my son drawing pictures of you?” I felt so confused I didn’t know what to do.. She started crying and telling me that she was sorry for the things that happened in the past. As I was about to comfort her and tell her that it was fine and that I had already forgave him I saw him walk up right behind her. He sat down at the table with us. He reached over.. held my hand, and said, “I’m sorry”..
then i woke up…
Some tell me to call and text to hang out.
Some tell me that I barely open up anymore.
Some tell me that I never come out.
I called and I txted. Some rarely replied.
I have shared and vented to many people, but most don’t open up back to me.
I go out here and there, but some don’t want to do the same things as I do.
Some people were just not meant to be acquainted with me
or is it the other way around..