Spring Break 2012, just started and I planned to just work, relax, and catch up with friends in nova. Well.. that won’t be happening anymore.
Friday night, I received a phone call from my mom and she told me that my grandmother had passed away. Although she was my step grandmother, she was my last grandparent who was alive. I know some of my friends are really close with their grandparents and some of my friends who aren’t as close. I wasn’t close with my grandmother, but I held on to the fact that I had one grandparent left in my life.
I am thankful that I was able to see her at least once before she passed away when she came to visit over the summer. The only other time I saw my grandmother was when I was just born and around the age of 3 when i went to go visit her in Korea. I don’t remember both times, but at least i know that she was a part of my life.
Even though I barely got to know her, she always called throughout the year to talk to me and always sent money and gifts. When I went to college and when I went on missions she was always so generous in sending me money. I was planning on going to korea during the next winterbreak to go visit her and spend more time with her, but I guess God wanted her now.
I’m not bitter, angry, or sad. Through this event I was forced to come back home to Maryland and throughout the time I’ve been here I’ve already bonded with my mom right before she left and had some quality time with my dad. Don’t get me wrong, I was extremely sad when I first heard the news but I know she’s in a better place because she was a strong believer and she changed my relationship with my mom.
Today, as I drove to my house in nova to pick up some things I needed for this week, I heard disturbing news on the radio. A boy named Alexander Song was put into a psychatric hospital because of threatening comments he made online about bombing his school.
As I drove the name sounded so familiar… but I brushed it off thinking that it couldn’t be anyone i knew. On my way back, my dad had called and asked if I heard the knews and right then I knew that it was someone I knew.
Alexander Song cousin to one of my friends in high school, was such a cute chubby kid back in middle school. When I was in 8th grade, he was in 7th and we always joked around in the school halls in between classes. In the summer, we would car pool to summer school at my church. There were times when we got annoyed of each other and times when we would have so much fun. He was such a bright and smart kid.
My dad sent me this link and I couldn’t believe it at first.. that it really was him. I don’t blame him for saying those things on the internet if he really did. I believe he had a reason and that he has probably been going through a lot. In the picture I can tell that he lost so much weight from when he was little. We tend to fear and look down on people who act like this, but please think twice.
This also brings up how I’ve treated others. We’re all different in so many ways, but it’s our differences that should be praised and should bring us together. There shouldn’t be so much judgement towards others. Things like this wouldn’t be happening. I know we don’t live in a perfect world, but we can at least try to be kind to the people around us.
I guess I’ve just been put in a spot where I just have to rethink about how I’ve been living my life and how i should be living my life.